Wow Babies or What?

So, I am 32 and want a baby. The problem? I am not in a relationship an I am currently unemployed and I don't have a house yet. Yes, I am one of those overly conscientious types. I usually pay attention to everything. I do only want one child someday. Preferably with a hot man that I actually love. Today, it can be hard to find that guy. But, I am working on it. I typically try to be confident in these arenas, but lately I am feeling my confidence wane a bit. I guess it's life calling itself to roost. I do try to be the positive type. Maybe what I should do is display this externally instead of primarily internally. Maybe pay more attention to my hair and what I wear and where I go even. Could this possibly improve my chances of finding magical sperm? I haven't always wanted a child. I actually once shuttered at the thought. But it's something about creating something from your body that you can specifically love that makes me want that. I know I would be a great mother. Now do I sit around thinking about how fat I will become during pregnancy and how uncomfortable I will be? No. Okay that is a lie of course I do. But looking at eyes that I know will be a cool pretty shape and color of brown similar to mine and seeing it's beautiful smile will make all that worthwhile. I am hoping anyway. Somehow I will simply have to make my outside match my inside so Mr. I need you now can respond. Yes maybe a hair appointment and a couple of new outfits are in order. The rest will take care of the rest. Oh yes and the other thing..... I have to work on being more outgoing. Men love that! Hell who am I kidding I love that! :)